Thursday, June 27, 2013
Sunday, June 3, 2012
人生?
去年和前男友分手后,生活好像失去重心。原认定的避风港突然塌了。失去了这个依靠我好像变成好像无头苍蝇一样,突然失去了方向,人生简直跌倒谷底。现在创伤愈合了,回头看这段感情时才惊觉我们真的完全不适合对方,想法太过不一了。之前深爱着他所以什么都能包含,或是没察觉。爱情果然是盲目的。虽然伤口愈合了,可是心被掏去的那一部分,依然是空洞的,以至近来常常问自己,到底人生的意义是什么? 真的只是埋头苦干,事业有成,成家立室而已吗? 如果依照大自然的规律,人生真的只是这样而已。动物从小就要学会打猎,或逃生。长大了要么凭自己本事去寻找食物和保护自己,要么就投靠势力强大的一群来获取食物和保护,以便在大自然生存。当然也少不了传宗接代。人类也不是如此吗?我们也是应用一样的方法在钢铁森林生存啊!这样真是太可悲了吗?!这绝对不是我要的人生。有一次和朋友聊天的时候说起真希望世界末日现在就来临,反正人生真的没什么意义,也没有东西可以盼望。朋友听到了都超紧张的,有的说"不是要去曰本吗?你一直都期盼的!"有的说"还有很多东西没做啊,好多国家都还没到过!"哈哈,好可爱的朋友,说的句句都中我的喜好,可是这些不是我主要盼望的东西。有一个很要好的朋友真接说"你需要宗教信仰!""我不需要这个!"我很铁定的回答。其实他说中了80%。对我需要寄托来祢补心里的空虚,可是不是宗教。我需要的是一个实体,一个人能让我完全依靠。我是一匹野马,我喜欢自由的到处乱闯。我不喜欢被困在笼子里,被呵护着。我不介意受伤。我只希望有一个人在我受伤时替我包扎伤口。伤口愈合了又让我到处闯。一个实实在在,能包容我的任性的避风港。三毛在<<大鬍孑與我>>这篇散文里写道"自由是多么可贵的事,心炅的自由更是我们牢牢要把握住的;不然有了爱情仍是不够的。"这正是我所追求的。
读了三毛的散文让我又兴起了流浪的念头。流浪多好,自由自在。能见识的东西也和普通短暂的旅行来得多。如果自己的人生真的会变成那么无趣,至少有流浪的故事来和朋友"车车大砲"。第一次有流浪的念头是因为认识了一个曾到南美洲流浪两年的朋友。他正是我自助旅行的启蒙老师。每一次听他说流浪的故事时,都可以看到他脸自然而然的流露无法形容的喜悦。说故事时他都口沬撗飞,神采飞扬,真让人羡慕。之后因为自己梦想流浪的地方欧洲收起了它发给马来西亚公民的working visa,梦想又破灭了。都怪那些"跳飞机"的害群之马!最近,又慢慢发觉自己懂得东西太少了!这个世界那么大,还有好多的东西等待我们去发觉,去体验。把自己困在钢铁森林,为名利和物质争夺,在红尘翻滚,太俗气了吧!连我自己都小看自己了。真的感谢三毛再次让我看破红尘!现在的目标,就是要在两年以内打好工作基础 (至少流浪完还能值钱的工作经验找工),然后存些钱,流浪去咯!有了新的目标,整个人都比较振作了!祝我好运吧!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Defying Gravity
Defying Gravity
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing, Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap...
It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
And you can't pull me down
I'm through accepting limits
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change but till I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of Losing love, I guess I've lost
Well if that's loveIt comes at much too high a cost
I'd sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!
Friday, February 19, 2010
7 Easy Postures for Photo Takings
The 7 Easy Postures for Photo Takings
1. Easiest! Bitchy
Put on your big big shades and look at the camera. DONT SMILE

2. I want to become a politician
Just simply point at something.
3. Not looking at the Camera
Look at somewhere else instead of the camera.
4. Look far far away
Just look far far away. Makes you look like you are a thinking some very important matter that involve all human kind and the whole universe!
5. Jump!
Get a group of your friends and JUMP
6. Act Cute

7. F4
Take picture of the back of you and your friends sitting together and finger pointing to the sky
These postures are applicable for ALL AGE and ALL GENDER! Get your friends and pose proudly in front of camera now!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Hello 2010!
Now it's time to recap my life in 2009.
1. One major decision that I've made in 2009 is changing my job. I left Titan and join Shell. Now staying in Miri, Sarawak. Come visit me! If you ask me whether I miss Titan or not, I'll definitely say YES! Especially HR in Titan. :p
2. Sponsored 2 children through World Vision. One from Thailand, one from South Africa.
3. Met my 2nd husband, Mr. Dell Inspiron
5. Visited Cambodia! And I feel in love with Angkor Wat! Plan to visit there again next time. Ohya, hated Phnom Penh.
6. Visited Brunei! nothing interesting there beside the Sushi. haha...
7. Visited KK! With Medically Revised September Group, the MDSG! LOL
1o. Arranged Fatt Choi Trio emo-part.
Ohya.. This year targets:
1. Lost weight!
2. Contact my family more often
3. Europe!!!!! :p
Still cannot believe I'm going to be 25 years old this year! SO FREAKING OLD! Well, I hope this year will be a good year for me. I'm actually looking forward to all the challenges (from work or life) and hopefully by overcoming those challenges I will grow (mentally, not physically) and become stronger. And those experiences I gained from the challenges will became my stepping stone for me to climb up to higher level. Cheers! 2010!
Monday, August 3, 2009
Good Bye Titan

In Titan, I met a group of interesting friends here.

Energetic, funny, sacarstic sometime, easy going, open minded, fun are the words that perfectly describe this group of people. With them, you will never feel bored! One person I must really thank to is my supervisor during my internship, Won. He was my hang out buddy during my internship. He always likes to gather his friends in his house and organizes some small event, such as photo sharing session, drinking session and so on. He is the one that introduce this group of friends to me.
In Titan, I met someone who tought me and guided me patiently - My Boss, Tee Soon Tak (though he never want to admit that he is our boss)
We called him monk because he got a very short hair and he's a vegetarian. hahaha... jahat!
And also someone that feed me with knowledge, AND FOOD! - Ho Sze Sing

I knew him during my internship. And we got closer when I was in same team with him when I work on shift. He is the superintendent of the team. He's one my Operation Si Fu. He tought me a lot of things about process operation. He also helped me a lot with my work. Besides, he is also my snack provider, espeacially during night shift. hihi.. We had became good friend. We can share our thoughts and even crap nonsense for whole day long!
Housemates!! Never forget you all la!

Vivien! The Bao Zou Po! She's my hang out buddy and drinking buddy. She is also my chef! (Looks like there are a lot of people feed me here) She is a good friend of mine. People always thought we are sisters leh. Funny, easy going, pretty and smart! Still single and available o!
Dennis! Another drinking kaki and talk crap kaki. He can cook very well too! His asam laksa and prawns! Thumbs up! Both Vivien and Dennis really take care of me a lot when I was in Johor.
Eventually, Titan and Johor has become my another home. I grew up a lot here, knowledge and exprience wise, not to mention physical wise too. haha! This is the second time I leave Titan, for money! hahah.. money minded. I thought since this is the second time I leave Titan, I'll will not be so sad. Cause when the first time I left Titan, even though I know I will miss everyone there, I never cry at all, not even feel like crying. However, this time, I cried! In front of my friend somemore. Damn embarrassing! Unbelievable! Thanks to Won's email I supposed. (Luckily I managed to hold my tears when I say goodbye to Tee and Ho.) Haih! So sad! I really really miss you all!!!!
Good luck and all the best to all of you. Thanks for everything! Keep in touch ya!
Oh ya before I forgot.
This is my work desk in office
On the right, is my lovely little plant.
On the left, is my Lee Hom calender! One of the thing the can cheer me up when I was tired.
Wait! There is something else behind Lee Hom calender!
I left it on my desk for the new comer. Gee, I wonder he will thank me or not.....
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Lee Hom Music Man Concert 2009!
他站在一个大厦的顶楼,俯瞰破坏音乐界的坏人(非法下载和买卖翻版的人)。漫画版的力宏誓言要用Bahamut 拯救这败坏的音乐界! 就在这个时候,王力宏穿着帅气的装甲,背着“中国墨画”吉他从半空降落,英雄气派犹如滔滔江水,无法抵挡。
“我刷了四个和“我刷了四个和弦, 天下太平~~~~” 舞台上的灯光同时亮起,照亮整个舞台。
“一声傲笑,声音在飘woah~~” 力宏以一段slow rock 版的《摇滚怎么了》来为这演唱会掀开序幕!
接着下来,王力宏继续演唱原版的《摇滚怎么了》!现场的观众尖叫的尖叫,合唱的合唱,气氛马上热了起来,一发不可收拾!就这样,王力宏 2009 Music Man 马来西亚演唱会正式引爆!
这场演唱会简直是一个非常丰富的摇滚音乐享宴。力宏把许多首以往的歌曲,例如《花田错》、《竹林深处》、《WHY》、《女朋友》等等都从新编排,变成摇滚版本。超好听的!摇滚曲风的歌曲也能让Bahamut 和力宏的吉他技巧发挥得淋漓尽致。(对,我忘了说,王力宏是在唱到大概第四首歌,《花田错》的时候,换上Bahamut的。)我个人超爱摇滚版的《竹林深处》。跟之前的编曲相交之下,摇滚版的让我有更深刻的感觉。
这是我当时穿的衣服
明白了吗? LOL..... 现在我知道要怎样让力宏注意我了! :p我真的很enjoy这一次的演唱会。非常喜欢力宏对歌曲的改编,简直是把他的歌曲升华到另一个层次。还有,这演唱会也加入了各种元素, 让观众的视觉和听觉都得到最高的享受。演唱会期间,我发觉到力宏的演唱方式和往日有点不一样,还看到他摸喉咙的小动作。我想他的喉咙应该不是在最佳状态吧。可是他还是非常卖力的演出哦!他把他的声音控制到很好,没有沙声。整场演唱会我只听到2次破音。力宏,要好好照顾身体哦~
看了这场演唱会,我对力宏的欣赏和支持有增无减哦。真的很期待他下一次的演唱会!希望将会是另一个不同凡响的音乐之旅!
p/s: Picture is credited to sunset, idolhunter production
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
???!!!??!!??!
I hate "fat meat"!! And I don't take them!
Monday, April 6, 2009
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
How Wil It Like...........?
How will it like staying in Miri, a small queit town? The last time I went there, the street was deserted even only at 8pm!
How will it be working with this Shell?
Will I be able to cope with the training and 3 monthly evaluation? Will I be able to adapt to their working environment and cultural? Will my collegues be friendly to me and guide me patiently just like my current company?
Most importantly, is this what I want???
Friday, March 20, 2009
Letter from my sponsor kid Thailand
The letter was about her hobby and what she normally do at home. Even though it's just a simple letter, it put a smile on my face. I feel very happy and sweet. She even drew flower underneath the letter. But I guess because she got limited colour pencil, she only used green, red colour pencil and normal pencil to colour the flower. See! How lucky we are? Remember when we were young we used to colour pencils that have complete set of 36 colours. The minimum types of colour we had was like... 12 colours?
I really hope to become her close friend one day. Beside giving her financial support, also guide her and give her advise on her problems. Will work hard to build up our relationship.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Johor - KL - Miri - KL - Johor
Yesterday, I was in LCCT. It was around 12.00am and I wanted to find a place to sit down and surf net while waiting for my flight back to Johor early in the morning. The first choice is of course McDonald's. Everyone knows that Mc Donald's operate 24 hours.
But as I was sitting down, setting up my laptop, few of the workers started to arrange the chairs and pull down the rolling steel door. "Closing???" I asked one of the workers. "Yes, for today." "Not 24 hours meh?" I asked again, but I didn't get any reply. Fine. I grabbed all my stuff and shifted to a restaurant opposite Mc Donald's, which also has a 24 hours sign in front of their shop. Before my seat got heated up by my butt, the worker started to close their shop, AGAIN! I was like what the hell? My memory of nearly being chase out from Vietnam International Airport because they didn't allow people to spend overnight there flashed through my mind. Don't tell me LCCT is doing the same thing to me! I quickly went to the information booth and asked the person incharge there what's going on. Only then I know that they are actually closing down for 3 hours to do the fogging. Phew! I'm not the unlucky after all. So in the end I settle down outside Mc Donald's.
What a great experience.......
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Please, Help Them!
How do you feel when you look at this picture?
While we are complaining about the food are eating, while we are enjoying the convenience and comfortably we had, they are millions of people out there suffering and struggling to survive. Famine is not the only problem they are facing. They also have to fight with disease, nature disaster, etc. Lack of basic needs supply such as clean water, food, medicine, facilities has made their living condition even worst.
You might thought that you need a huge amount of money to help these people but you 're not Bill Gates and you can't afford. But NO. With World Vision "Support a Child" program, you only need to contribute RM50 per month to sponsor a child. This contribution will help to improve their living environment such as clean water supply, food and agriculture training, health care and education. (click here for their flash demo). In a nut shell, you just need reduce the amount of clothes you buy, or the frequency you go for a holiday or party per month to save a life!
To become a sponsor, you only need to follow the below steps:
Fill up the Sign Up form *
They will send you an email confirmation and payment instructions.
Upon receiving your first contribution, they will send you the child’s picture and details.
Within three months, your sponsored child will write to you to introduce him/herself. If your sponsored child is too young, a family member or World Vision staff will write on his/her behalf.

So what are you waiting for?
Visit www.worldvision.com.my for more info.










